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Starting another year….the same resolution.  I’m not sure how I’ve let another year pass and I’ve still not lost the weight.  I guess I’m a little bummed out today.  It doesnt help to see all the holiday pictures.  If I would have just stuck to my 2008 plan….woulda, shoulda, coulda. 

But instead of sitting around feeling sorry for myself I’m going to do something productive.  I think I’ll go work on setting up my workout room (I’ve been clearing some stuff out to make more space) and celebrate with a workout.  Hoping the excercise will improve my mood.   

Call me a convert.  I hated yoga.  I’m more of an aggressive kickboxing type of gal.  Besides that quite the mind stuff just gets on my nerves.  Who has time for all that stillness junk!  However, I went to yoga class yesterday.  I’ve gone a few times over the last month and I honestly don’t know why I don’t do it everyday.  I’m sold!  I felt so much better by the end of the class- inside and out.  I hate getting there (getting on the mat is the hardest pose) but once I do a few moves I start to get loose.  By the end of the class I am soooo relaxed.  The girl next to me even started snoring during the relaxation part Great for my stress and I feel a little sore today - the good kind.  I often overlook this “quite” exercise.  Need to do it more- because it is really good for my state of mind.  Maybe I’ll try to add a dvd session tomorrow.   Call me a yogi in training.

Not a good couple of days.  Things are stressful at work and I ended up getting a migrane.  So bad I had to go to the dr office to get a shot to control the pain.  Haven’t had one that bad in at least 8 years.  Anyway needless to say diet and exercise have not gone all that well.  I seem to lose control when I get stressed and I reach for comfort foods.  Now I feel depressed about cheating on my diet.  Time to recommit and move on…tomorrow is a new day. 

One day without cheese and it went well.  I did have some extra veggies (which is the goal) and I avoided some of the fat in my diet.  Thanks everyone for the support…I have been watching my calcuim and have plenty of soy milk and other foods to meet my nutritional needs.  I’m reading a book on vegan nutrition to make sure I know what subs will work.  I noticed today that I had to think more about healthy options today and plan my menu - I think both will help me keep on my diet.   

 We’ll see how it goes….

OK I have this issue.  I’ve been mostly vegetarian since I was a teenager.  I only ate chicken and turkey.  Last year on December 2^nd I cut out all meat.  I have my reasons (don’t worry I won’t preach to anyone else) but it wasn’t really a big deal for me.

So I’ve developed this cheese issue.  I have cheese with every meal.  Especially when I eat out.  Cheese and carbs- great for the hips!  So tomorrow I am swearing off cheese.  Maybe not forever but for a month.  I think it will help me focus on finding fresh new ways to eat and it couldn’t hurt.  Who knows I could develop a broccoli problem J

So it’s no cheese until 2009- longer if I can stand it!

I have tried everything.  I know how to do this but my battle is emotional.  I am sabatoging myself and I need to find out why.  So I’ve decided to blog about my weight loss and talk about the feelings that have kept me from being successful in the past.  This is new to me so any tips would be appreciated.

Here’s a little about me- My goal is to get back to being happy and healthy.  I used to be that person and somehow I lost myself.  I can fake it pretty good but I realize now my increasing weight is a symptom of unhappiness.  I’m also suspiscous that I am using my weight to keep me from getting really close to anyone.  I need to get to the root of my emotional eating and learn to better cope with stress.  So I am going to take a wholisic approach focusing  on my mind, stress, triggers, exercise and food.  To be successful I have to change my lifestyle and find ways to feel good without eating.  While I intellectually know exactly what needs to be done my challenge will be emotional.  I invite you to follow along and maybe we can help each other along the way.  

 So here I go again…but this time I will succeed.